"Men Hjärtat är Vild"

“we’re holding on to the pain because it’s all...

Thu, 17 Nov 2011 14:23:00 -0500

“we’re holding on to the pain because it’s all we have left”

Nights like these I can’t hold out.
Wanted a sign, any sign, that maybe you still care.
Wondered if you changed your status from the last time I saw it.

That’s when I realised you deleted me.

I had to keep myself away cause I know you’d have moved on by now and I KNEW, that with all the stalking and intelligence I was bound to find something and I couldn’t have that.
I couldn’t bear to face it; t’was the only way I could will myself not to know.
Removed the latitude contact so I wouldn’t speculate.
Deactivated fb so I wouldn’t stalk.
Removed you fron MSN cause I didn’t wanna know when you’d change your nick
Stopped tumblring here cause I don’t want you to know I’m still not okay, it’d make it hard for you to move on without looking back.

EVERYTHING I did, I did with reason.
Not for the fun of it, not cause I liked to.

*

Seriously who am I kidding.
“Maybe he still cares. Maybe I was wrong and he hasn’t found someone else”
That’s the real bullshit right there. (fuck this)

Nice to know you’ve moved on to someone new.

Fri, 11 Nov 2011 16:06:00 -0500

Nice to know you’ve moved on to someone new.

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Thu, 10 Nov 2011 14:01:13 -0500

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Wed, 09 Nov 2011 20:22:00 -0500

I wonder if we’d always live in shadows because of certain complications I wish to avoid.
Wonder if these complications ever cross your mind; I think they do but there’s too much left unspoken.

I wonder if I know you, but know that I don’t know you all the same.
Certain signs I can’t comprehend, feelings I don’t understand.
You’re an enigma but mystery is always alluring.
I wonder if for the first time I’d try.

Yawns it’s 9 and there’s too much in my head I need my beauty sleep.
An ounce of happiness to start the morning/end the ‘night’.

mochacafe: (via chickenshit) What happens when your happy pill...

Wed, 09 Nov 2011 05:42:10 -0500

mochacafe:

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What happens when your happy pill is sad ?

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Mon, 07 Nov 2011 17:05:39 -0500

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make the pain stop.

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Mon, 07 Nov 2011 16:59:58 -0500

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Never mind, I’ll find someone like you.

Mon, 07 Nov 2011 14:49:22 -0500

Never mind, I’ll find someone like you.

"There’s a reason I said I’d be happy alone. It wasn’t ‘cause I thought I’d be happy alone. It was..."

Mon, 07 Nov 2011 11:54:17 -0500

“There’s a reason I said I’d be happy alone. It wasn’t ‘cause I thought I’d be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It’s easier to be alone. Because what if you learn that you need love and then you don’t have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It’s like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever.”

- -Grey’s Anatomy (via lifeinafilmcanister)

Today’s my baby sister’s 17th birthday. It’s...

Sun, 06 Nov 2011 17:07:00 -0500

Today’s my baby sister’s 17th birthday. It’s been 17 years and she’s slowly but surely blossoming into the awesome little lady I know she’ll be.

I can only guess it wasn’t easy. It wasn’t easy having to live up to academic expectations set in place by her elder sister. It wasn’t easy learning about life, love and loss, coping with all that pain at a tender age of 11. It wasn’t easy to be brave, to smile despite it all, but she’s the bravest girl I know.

Over the years we grew from squabbling lil bitches to perfect sisters. We’ve had a million and one photographs, we’d share clothes, have little pillow-fight sessions, snatch stuffed toys, make up the lamest monikers for each other, scream to our favourite songs in the bedroom (and majorly annoy the Mum).. Best of all it’s the comfort in knowing that we can talk and share on a deeper level. That she’d always have my back every time my relationships crumble to bits. That she’d hug me until I stopped crying.

It’s so heartwarming to watch her grow and mature so beautifully, yet she’ll always be my baby sister. The baby girl of whom I’m fiercely protective cause I believe she deserves nothing but the best.

Happy birthday Sissy, I love you x

CAPPADOCIA WITH THE HOMIE NEXT SUMMER :DIt’s officially...

Sat, 05 Nov 2011 06:56:07 -0400

CAPPADOCIA WITH THE HOMIE NEXT SUMMER :D

It’s officially replaced Peru at the top of my “Places to Go” list, whoop whoop. So happy ((:

(P.s. photo doesn’t do this AMAZING landscape justice)

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Fri, 04 Nov 2011 14:01:15 -0400

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It’s not called missing if you’ve already moved on to someone else.

Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too...

Wed, 02 Nov 2011 17:14:00 -0400

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do,
I still feel you here ‘till the moment I’m gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much
Than to drown in your love and not feel your reign.

Set me free, leave me be.
I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall,
Just the way I’m supposed to be.
But you’re on to me and all over me.

You loved me ‘cause I’m fragile.
I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

Set me free, leave me be.
I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall,
Just the way I’m supposed to be.
But you’re on to me and all over me.

I live here on my knees as I
Try to make you see that you’re
Everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you’re neither friend nor foe though I
Can’t seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you’re keeping me down
You’re keeping me down.
You’re onto me, onto me and all over

Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long

But you touch me for a while and all my fragile strength is...

Wed, 02 Nov 2011 17:10:06 -0400

But you touch me for a while and all my fragile strength is gone.

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Wed, 02 Nov 2011 17:03:38 -0400

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Please.

Wed, 02 Nov 2011 10:01:13 -0400

Please.

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Tue, 01 Nov 2011 07:36:42 -0400

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Tue, 01 Nov 2011 07:36:22 -0400

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Mon, 31 Oct 2011 16:55:36 -0400

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